What I learnt from getting hormonal acne due to chemotherapy

Hormonal acne is aggravated by an imbalance in your hormones. Usually, it appears on the lower part of your face, including the bottom of your cheeks and the jawline. It is different from acne that occurs during puberty, which also appears on the forehead, chin, and sometimes, on the nose.

When I started my cancer treatments in 2016, I took it upon myself to learn about the negative effects I was going to experience during (and after) the treatments. I was aware that I was going to lose all my hair, vomit as much as I’d eat, lose weight, lose my complexion, have a steroid swollen face, etc. I was also informed of the long-term complications that would linger around as long as I will possibly live. It was all scary, and I could only imagine the journey ahead.

However, in my wildest dreams, I never thought I’d ever experience or have to deal with hormonal acne. I have experienced almost all the negative effects of hormonal imbalance since I started my treatments. But it was all intrinsic, and it ended there. I did not have to explain to anyone what was going on, how I was feeling, or why this and that. It was the effects only I was aware of. But with acne, it is a different story.

When it started, I thought it was just seasonal pimples. But it worsened with each day. Although I knew there was no other reason but my hormones (because I had previously been experiencing other hormonal problems), I was not entirely sure because I didn’t even know there was a thing called “hormonal acne.”

This article is merely to give awareness and to enlighten. That, sometimes, people have skin with flaws not because they are not hygienic enough, not eating healthy or drinking enough water, etc. Sometimes it is because of something that is totally inevitable such as underlying condition, treatments, or genetics. I would encourage that we look at each other phenomenally. And not to resent, judge and ridicule but empower and help each other through our respective healing journeys.

Acne dissolved my confidence, shattered my self-esteem, and robbed me of my sense of self. Not entirely by itself, but also through the comments from other women who assumed the world had crushed me through self-inflicted actions. But in the end, it is through self-acceptance, self-love, and not minding what people would or wouldn’t say that I got to rise and chin up. 

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